Something seems to move for the future. A good news has arrived, some days ago. Was waiting for that since two months, and almost got me surprised. But it’s not so easy now…having been accepted from the Commission is not the final step. Now I have to find a lab that really wants me. I have contacts with one, but they’re proposing me to go on with my current thesis, possibly with the same guy…and that’s not good, not at all.
In these days I’m thinking only about my future, about September…where I will be, doing what, alone or with whom. All this thinking just to forget the present, the people I am working with, the topic of my project. And mixing the “pure” future with this “dirty” present is not acceptable from my point of view.
I have to go to visit the place in Belgium in two weeks, and to Lausanne in a month. I hope some certainties will arrive, and honestly now I’m not able to tell what I would prefer. It’s always a tradeoff, I know, but damnit sometimes you think it should be easier. I’m loving every day more the possibility of living in Lausanne, but I will do it only under some conditions. It seems that I can decide something about my future: I have to be really careful, to understand who really wants me.
